Photo: Philipp Antar
So, I am proud to announce that as of May 2 I am now officially a geek dad. That's right, my wife and I finally had our beautiful baby girl and let me tell you, I couldn't be prouder. The future looks very bright for my little geekling. However, it would seem that since she was born, I've been hit with a major case of anxiety. Now I have been diagnosed with social anxiety, but it was usually only in certain circumstances. This is... really worrying me because when my anxiety usually rears its ugly head... I'm pretty useless. It's one of those cases where I can't hardly eat anything, sleep is out of the question, and I become a shivering wreck, to put it nicely.
I have noticed that the hospital itself was a culprit of it, and thanks to family have been able to get away for a little bit and prepare for my little one's homecoming. But now at home, the sensation and feeling of dread is sitting at the bottom of my stomach like rocks. I find my hands starting to shake again and the fearful panic of the realization that I'm now a father and my body is turning on me washes over my mind again.
So, I reach out to my peers, to the other geek dads out there, how do you handle this? Was anyone else stricken with a case of the absolute freak-outs? And most importantly... how can I get myself to the point where I can be the husband and father I need to be right now?